“Mom this is the most Boring Summer Ever.”

When my son came to me the other day and said “Mom this has been the most boring summer ever.”  I pulled out my camera and started a slide show of everything he has done from swimming to make things go BOOM! He just shrugged his shoulders and left.

Welcome to motherhood where you can’t make everyone happy but all you can do is remember you tried your damnest to.

Summer is hard where we live because the temperatures can get up to 118 degrees making going outside impossible even to swim because the water isn’t cold it is like sitting in a bath.  (We dumped 10 bags of Ice in my father in laws pool to cool it off.)

Thankfully my kids are in  modified school year so we are able to have an amazing fall break 14 days of adventures. I decided what we couldn’t do this summer we will try during fall break.

School starts July 25th and while my girls are excited my oldest son is scared and his anxiety is flying high.  4th graded ended on such a low I wasn’t sure my son would ever be able to climb out of that hole.  His grades were fine A’s and B’s but he felt like he failed because he didn’t get all A’s like his 1st grade sister.  My husband and I felt like something was wrong but we had tried everything as natural as possible and yet his anxiety was flying high.  He was always angry at everyone, he never slept and well other body function took a back to seat until he was so full of it the doctors said “You son is so full of Shit.” We all laughed but we knew it was due to anxiety.

After lots and lots of praying we found a Dr. for my son to see.  The doctor came highly recommend and after lots of tears he took my son into his office alone and they talked. When my son came out it was my turn once again. The Dr. told me that my son goals are to better communicate with me and to be able to sleep.  I cried once again telling the doctor I just wanted my son back. He used to be happy not easy going but happy. Now he is always angry and never smiles anymore without a lot of effort.

He talked about everything I had done and he told me that was step 1-10 he would ask most of his clients to do. Since we are using him as a last resort we are at a last resort. Medication.  I cried once again because this was the last thing I wanted to do but I also knew we were at the last step.  The Dr wants to get his levels back were the need to be.

On the drive home from the Dr’s my son told me he feels he can’t talk to me about anything important because he is in fear that I will be upset or angry and than consequence of his actions will be handed out. (He is 10 years old)

I cried I have always tried to be open with my son and hoping he can be open with me.  This statement hit me hard as if someone pulled out my heart and ran it over several times.

I went to my husbands worked and cried because I feel like such a failure. The reason I never wanted to have kids was because I didn’t want to pass on my messed up brain. My husband reminded me that just like diabetes or thyroid to keep the chemical in the body at the right levels you need medication.

This week we have tried really hard to follow a new sleeping habit which has helped my son. He is sleeping most nights by 8:30. That hasn’t happened even as a baby.  He is taking medication but a very small dose and we have seen small improvements.

It hard not to feel like a failure in life when you realized you passed on chemical imbalance to your child.

Writing this out was more for me than anyone else reminding me that things could get worse and that I am doing what I feel is best for my child.  I am working on my own inner demons and maybe my son won’t be in the same place 20+ year later like his mom.  Instead he will be able to fight the demons and he is winning because my husband and I took a huge leap of faith.

Reviewing A book on Eating Disorder

A few days ago I received a book in the mail about a woman’s struggle with her eating disorder. I was excited I wanted to hear her story and see how she was able to cope with her eating disorder.

As I read I realized the book pitched to me and the book I received were completely different.  The more I read the more I wanted to rewrite the book. It wasn’t the grammar or spelling errors that wanted me fix the story it was the fact the story pitched to me was the one I wanted to read. Not the book I received.

I found myself almost getting angry because I found nothing helpful in the book and as I finished the woman’s story I started to write a three start review. Very negative review.

I sat down and talked with my husband who opened my eyes to the fact I needed to reread the book for what it is one persons story of an eating disorder and not the story pitched to me.  I did as he suggested. I still didn’t like the book. However I realized I do not have the courage it would take to write down my own personal experiences let alone asking people to read and review it.

So instead of reviewing I will be asking for an interview I will post on Book him Danno. I am too close to the topic.

Everyone finds management in different way and I think hers is writing this book. No one will ever overcome an eating disorder but we are able to manage it better. She talked about seeing disappointment in her brothers eyes, drinking and abusing her medication to help her cope with the mental pain.

I wish we could have read her mothers thoughts because I want to know what it is like from the other side. Because I know what it is like to be overcome and living day in and out with an eating disorder but I have no idea what it does to those I love.  My husband has always been honest but my extended family has never said anything.

Since I read the book I did a little of my own research and here are a few things I found.

Eating disorders commonly co-occur with anxiety disorders. For those who have an anxiety disorder, a co-occurring eating disorder may make their symptoms worse and recovery more difficult. It’s essential to be treated for both disorders.

Anorexia has the highest fatality rate of any mental illness.

                  .9% of women will struggle with anorexia in their lifetime

                  The person restricts their food intake into unhealty levels. They do not need to be stick thin.

It is estimated that up to 4% of females in the United States will have bulimia during their lifetime

                 3.9% of these bulimic individuals will die

 

A 2004 study found that two-thirds of people with eating disorders suffer from an anxiety disorder at some point in their lives and that around 42 percent had developed an anxiety disorder during childhood, well before the onset of their eating disorder. Other studies also confirm that an anxiety disorder usually the onset of an eating disorder, but panic disorder often follows.

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/27825715-finding-faith-in-the-battle?from_new_nav=true&ac=1&from_search=true

If you are interested in the book here is the goodreads like as well as the amazon link.

 

http://www.amazon.com/Finding-Faith-Battle-Alysia-Keller-ebook/dp/B017UPS0WC

 

 

Book Reviews – Out of Dark (Falcon #1) – Geri Foster

Book Reviews – Out of Dark (Falcon #1) – Geri Foster

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Title Out of Dark (Falcon #1)

Author Geri Foster

Stars 4 out of 5

Review
I found this book free on Amazon and thought why not it might be a bit on the predictable side but maybe fun.  Lets say if you have a check list trust me everything will be check off when it comes to Romantic Military suspense books.

Russians Bad, American’s Good, Tall Dark and Handsome Alpha Male, Sassy Heroine who is in the wrong place at the wrong time, and she swoons over hot alpha males amazing hot body. Along with lots and lots guns, chases, bombs, houses blowing up, ex boyfriends, siblings, best friends better than family and the list goes on.
 Corporate attorney, Emily Richards is sent to Russia to mediate for her law firm but while she is there she tests out her “friends” latest technology for fun. John “Mac” McKinsey is running away from the Russians and needs an escape so he tucks himself away in Emily Hotel room until it is time to leave on her Corporate jet. Insert hot body, amazing abs and curves in all the right places, sex and you have the first few chapters in the book. This book has lots of fast pace actions scenes make up for some of the more cheesy elements in the first half of the book.

I feel Emily Richardson is reason I gave this book its four stars instead of one because of her very easy going character as well as her sassy attitude. Thankfully the author didn’t create a cry in the corner or why did you do that character for Emily otherwise I would have given this book a 1. Thankfully Emily is fun sassy in a good way. She loves her job, her quiet life, and doesn’t want adventure but when it happens she goes with the flow. Emily has baggage but it makes you find her more human. I love that the author doesn’t allow her to get mowed down by the Alpha males in the book and stands on her own to feet.

This book has lot of predictable moments but again the author makes up for that in the banter between characters, actions scenes and a few sexy scenes but instead of having Emily pine away for Mac she moves on.

All is all this book is a quick fun book you can read on those long cold winter nights or tuck it away for summer to read by the pool on that warm vacation you are thinking about.

Review Billy Makes A New Friend

Title: Billy Makes A New Friend

Author: Ayala Sar

Stars 5 out of 5

Review:
Billy Makes A New Friend is your typical teaching book for kids between the ages of 4-8. This book teaches about feelings a child might not understand when they refuse to share their toys or when they do share their toys. The book rhymes nicely so your kindergarten-3rd grader will be able to read it with ease. The illustrations flow nicely with the story and with simple drawings that tell the story as well as the words.

I read this book to my 4 and 6 year old daughters who said the book was good but she shares her toys all the time with her friends. Than we talked about her sharing with her sister and maybe it would make her feel happier if she shared with her toys.  She nicely informed me that sharing with friends is totally different than sharing with your younger sister.

The story does have an older brother who shares as well but that went over my daughter’s head or she simply ignored that part of the story.

The author writes in simple terms so your kindergarten would be able to read and follow along or your 3rd grader is able to read it to his younger or her younger siblings.

A perfectly simple book for your children to understand the importance of sharing and you will be sharing the importance of reading with them.

Currently on Kindle Unlimited.

50 Shades of Gray Read by my Husband

My husband wanted to know what was all the hype surrounding 50 shades of Gray. So he “borrowed” the book and started to read it. He couldn’t stop laughing and decided to while on a long boring business trip he would record himself reading the book. (FYI I have never read 50 Shades)

Warning he does swear and I got on him about that but he said I would have too if I had to read that book.

http://www.douglasbwimmer.com/silliness/

Enjoy!!

If you get the chance check out Amber and Eric is a Parody of every Erotic Romance.

http://www.douglasbwimmer.com/works-in-progress/2014/3/1/the-machine-shop

Enjoy

Fashioned For Power

Fashioned For PowerTitle: Fashioned For Power

Author: Kathleen Brooks

Stars 5 out of 5

Review:

Allegra Simpson Vice President of Simpson Fashion is the perfect daughter, sister and Vice President because she hides her emotions behind a pretty smile and perfect manners. Finn Williams though he lost everything when he blew out his knee ending his baseball career her found the love of his life. Allegra Simpson but little does he know that a mystery man has fallen in love with her to and will do anything to make her his. Even death!

Kathleen Brooks created a book that is family centered; around love, compassion and no matter what family comes first. Each book in this series is a standalone novel but read in order the reader will follow along as the characters develop and grow. Each story only adds to each other having the reader investing in the power series with each of the family member’s struggles, love and life.

The author takes on heavy topics for her mysteries with Allegra the author dives into stalkers and how the victims are often see it is their fault someone is terrorizing them. While the story is dark the author creates some humorous and sweet moments to keep their reader focused on the love story. Kathleen Brooks throw quite a few optional stalkers at you so when you meet the man you’re a little taken back.

This story ends as all of the authors other books but not without twist and turns that make you wonder if Allegra will have her happily ever after like her sisterse

http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00PO36FUC/ref=rdr_kindle_ext_tmb

 

http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/fashioned-for-power-kathleen-brooks/1121086320?ean=2940150210516

REVIEW HOT Ice by Lynn Raye Harris

ICE HOT Grace Campbell the daughter of United States Senator is a scientist creating a super virus that could destroy nations. When she is almost attacked outside her lab her father wants the best protection possible. Garrett “Iceman” Spencer is one the HOT specialist who didn’t join the elite black ops group to baby sit a spoiled senator’s daughter. As Garrett is sent to protect the princess he finds a shy woman who might be able to thaw his heart. I have read several HOT novels and each one has hot sex scenes, enough Alpha males to drive a sane women crazy, lots of action and more sex. What I have enjoyed about the HOT series is each book is its own entity so the reader can start on book three and know what is going on in book 7. The reader will never be lost because even the background mystery or story that started in book 5 carries forward with HOT’s men retelling with a different view points again keeping the reader updated so new readers to the series will not be lost. HOT ICE isn’t my favorite in this series because I feel the story disappeared when the characters jumped in the sack. The story instead revolved around each sexual encounter with a little story thrown in so you could remember why Iceman and Grace where found in different place to have sex. Lynn Rayed Harries knows how to write a sex scene there is no question about that but I really could have used more story. I felt the book was 85-90% sex. (Either the act, thinking or leading up to sex.) I almost felt lost in why they were running until it was mentioned because of the countless hot sex scenes. I like the HOT commanding officer Méndez best quote in the book that reflects the entire series. “Every F***ing time. If there’s a woman involved, you assholes loses your minds.” The writing style is what readers expect from Lynn Rayed Harries. Lots of snappy dialogue between Grace and Garrett which I found quite fun. Thankful there was enough reference to the movie bodyguard to make me realize this was Lynn Raye Harries personal version.  Lots of clinch moments that would have had me rolling my eyes if not for the reference to the movie bodyguard reminding me again this was her personal version. If you enjoyed the other books in the HOT series this is a can’t miss. Lots of steamy sex scenes to get the read though the long winter nights. Received as an Advance Copy for an Honest Review.