Summer has Arrived. Wait am I busier than before

my mind

For the next 7 weeks summer has arrived in good old AZ.  Ok not really Summer vacation is only 7 weeks. Summer last until the first couple of weeks in October.

In those 7 weeks we have more places to go, doctors to see and friends to be with than we have during the school year.  June is already packed tight and I am still trying to squeeze things in.  After 3 years I am finally getting my shoulder checked out and hopefully fix. My son is going to see a shrink for his anxiety because we have tried everything else and nothing seems to be working.

Trust me when I have say. “I have tried it all!”

Sleep overs with friends, weddings to attend, birthday parties that need to be celebrated and lets not forget the need for sleep in there. Ohh I almost forgot Fathers Day.

Every day something is going on. Mostly fun things like swimming, museums, bookstore and reading.  Ahh yes reading. My 5 year old who is heading into kindergarten is reading.  While we are struggling to blend sounds she is reading and working hard so she will be able to read like her older sister.

Friday and Saturday will be 110-115 and my oldest is going to Cub camp.  I told my oldest he has to take, a water bottle, squirt bottle, and lots of sunscreen.  He wasn’t excited for sunscreen and told me NO. I told him than you can’t blame me for skin cancer that will cause you nose to fall off.  He didn’t believe me so I had him call his uncle who told him the skin cancer almost caused his nose to fall off.  (Not that extreme but he did have a hole in his nose the size of a nickel)

Hey whatever it takes to make my oldest to wear sunscreen.

Two months on Vyvanse and life has been so different.  I still struggle with eating, and my temper but I can deal with life so much better. Lots more laughs (unless Migraine) less yelling, cleaner house (For me!) Things get done every single day.  I love it!

My phone has alarms to remind me to each breakfast lunch and dinner as well as the snack in between to keep my calories up while I am running around and swimming.  Lots of swimming at my father in laws and friends home.

As my husband said “Its like Night and Day.  She is happy, enjoying life and is Heidi. The Heidi I knew that was locked up inside and couldn’t get out.”

He told me I am a positive person and understands why so many people ask for my thoughts opinions and help. (I decided not to ask him my anxiety train of thoughts that went that statement.)

My 3 year old has decided he loves his diapers and honestly fighting a 3 year old to potty train who thinks he is 2. Isn’t fun, (No matter how many times you tell him he is 3) Its not worth the power struggle until he is ready.  I just will tell him he can’t do certain things because he is in a diaper.  NO shaming just he can’t go to certain activities unless potty trained.

Even my thoughts are everywhere because that is what I feel like.

The loves sounds of my children are fighting to time to see what happened.

Reviewing A book on Eating Disorder

A few days ago I received a book in the mail about a woman’s struggle with her eating disorder. I was excited I wanted to hear her story and see how she was able to cope with her eating disorder.

As I read I realized the book pitched to me and the book I received were completely different.  The more I read the more I wanted to rewrite the book. It wasn’t the grammar or spelling errors that wanted me fix the story it was the fact the story pitched to me was the one I wanted to read. Not the book I received.

I found myself almost getting angry because I found nothing helpful in the book and as I finished the woman’s story I started to write a three start review. Very negative review.

I sat down and talked with my husband who opened my eyes to the fact I needed to reread the book for what it is one persons story of an eating disorder and not the story pitched to me.  I did as he suggested. I still didn’t like the book. However I realized I do not have the courage it would take to write down my own personal experiences let alone asking people to read and review it.

So instead of reviewing I will be asking for an interview I will post on Book him Danno. I am too close to the topic.

Everyone finds management in different way and I think hers is writing this book. No one will ever overcome an eating disorder but we are able to manage it better. She talked about seeing disappointment in her brothers eyes, drinking and abusing her medication to help her cope with the mental pain.

I wish we could have read her mothers thoughts because I want to know what it is like from the other side. Because I know what it is like to be overcome and living day in and out with an eating disorder but I have no idea what it does to those I love.  My husband has always been honest but my extended family has never said anything.

Since I read the book I did a little of my own research and here are a few things I found.

Eating disorders commonly co-occur with anxiety disorders. For those who have an anxiety disorder, a co-occurring eating disorder may make their symptoms worse and recovery more difficult. It’s essential to be treated for both disorders.

Anorexia has the highest fatality rate of any mental illness.

                  .9% of women will struggle with anorexia in their lifetime

                  The person restricts their food intake into unhealty levels. They do not need to be stick thin.

It is estimated that up to 4% of females in the United States will have bulimia during their lifetime

                 3.9% of these bulimic individuals will die

 

A 2004 study found that two-thirds of people with eating disorders suffer from an anxiety disorder at some point in their lives and that around 42 percent had developed an anxiety disorder during childhood, well before the onset of their eating disorder. Other studies also confirm that an anxiety disorder usually the onset of an eating disorder, but panic disorder often follows.

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/27825715-finding-faith-in-the-battle?from_new_nav=true&ac=1&from_search=true

If you are interested in the book here is the goodreads like as well as the amazon link.

 

http://www.amazon.com/Finding-Faith-Battle-Alysia-Keller-ebook/dp/B017UPS0WC